I can't sleep right now. It's 3:11 AM, excuse me, 3:12 in the morning and I'm unable to sleep. Probably has something to do with having gone to sleep at 4 yesterday and woken up at about 2 in the afternoon today. But at any rate my mind is abuzz with thought. I'm thinking about a number of things, but most especially reflecting on how I was in the past and how I am now. What I want and what I had. What I will do and what I've done. I want to find some peace, and I want to find someone to help me find that peace. I want a strong woman, to be honest. I want someone I can argue with and lose every once in a while. I want someone who'll get jealous, who'll actually work to keep me in her life. I want someone I can be proud of, and I can be proud to be with. I want someone that is interesting and willing to discuss things. I want someone who won't just roll over. I want someone who'll keep up. I want someone who'll make my life more interesting. I want someone who is relatively well adjusted. I want someone who I can take care of, and would be willing to let me take care of, but it's not necessary. I don't want someone who's damaged goods. I want someone relatively mature. I want someone who can take care of herself, but would appreciate some help. I want someone who gives me options, not ultimatums. I want someone who has her own life. I want someone who plays it cool and makes me hunt her, but just the same keeps encouraging me. I want someone who doesn't mind that I'm geeky, doesn't mind that I have quirks, doesn't mind that I can be high maintenance. I want someone who's willing to put up with some of my needs. I want someone who'll tell me what she wants and expect me to provide as such. I want someone who can share what she wants with me without feeling like she's being pressed into it. I want someone who can share without feeling obligated, instead just willingly letting me in on a secret. I want someone sufficiently secure in herself that we can discuss things that may be sensitive subjects. I want someone who can talk religion, philosophy, music, dance, sports, or anything else with me. I want someone who can accept if she doesn't know something and will be willing to learn about it. I want someone who can teach me. I want someone who wants me in her life and is willing to put forth effort for it.
