Breaking Point

What I want is just to be held and told that I'm loved and that everything will be alright. That will not happen. There are very few people that I would let do this with me, and I know that this isn't an option with any of them. I'm just overwhelmed and just have to survive until the end of the semester. I've reached the point that I've got too much on my plate. I'll admit it. I'm not strong enough. I can't do more than what I'm doing now. I'll do less in the future, and I'll survive that way. For now, though, I'll just have to accept not being able to get what I want. So I'll have to repress the desire to have it happen. I'll push that aside and make peace with never letting anyone close again. I'm alone and always will be. I can't afford to let anyone close to me. They have other things going on, and do not, nor will ever have enough time for me and what I want. It is the way of things. So I won't let anyone get close. It's survival. I just can't do anything about it.