I can't sleep right now. It's 3:11 AM, excuse me, 3:12 in the morning and I'm unable to sleep. Probably has something to do with having gone to sleep at 4 yesterday and woken up at about 2 in the afternoon today. But at any rate my mind is abuzz with thought. I'm thinking about a number of things, but most especially reflecting on how I was in the past and how I am now. What I want and what I had. What I will do and what I've done. I want to find some peace, and I want to find someone to help me find that peace. I want a strong woman, to be honest. I want someone I can argue with and lose every once in a while. I want someone who'll get jealous, who'll actually work to keep me in her life. I want someone I can be proud of, and I can be proud to be with. I want someone that is interesting and willing to discuss things. I want someone who won't just roll over. I want someone who'll keep up. I want someone who'll make my life more interesting. I want someone who is relatively well adjusted. I want someone who I can take care of, and would be willing to let me take care of, but it's not necessary. I don't want someone who's damaged goods. I want someone relatively mature. I want someone who can take care of herself, but would appreciate some help. I want someone who gives me options, not ultimatums. I want someone who has her own life. I want someone who plays it cool and makes me hunt her, but just the same keeps encouraging me. I want someone who doesn't mind that I'm geeky, doesn't mind that I have quirks, doesn't mind that I can be high maintenance. I want someone who's willing to put up with some of my needs. I want someone who'll tell me what she wants and expect me to provide as such. I want someone who can share what she wants with me without feeling like she's being pressed into it. I want someone who can share without feeling obligated, instead just willingly letting me in on a secret. I want someone sufficiently secure in herself that we can discuss things that may be sensitive subjects. I want someone who can talk religion, philosophy, music, dance, sports, or anything else with me. I want someone who can accept if she doesn't know something and will be willing to learn about it. I want someone who can teach me. I want someone who wants me in her life and is willing to put forth effort for it.
3 comments:
Dare I say you want a girl with a short skirt and looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong jacket? :)
At least at the end of the day, you know what you want, then. Or, as the case may be, don't, since wanting something specific automatically crosses off things not desired. Best place to start, really.
It's a terrible place to start, because it's an impossible request.
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