Maybe. I don't really know at this moment. I'm torn between a variety of thoughts. I still like to doubt myself as much as possible, it seems. Going to be hanging out with a girl I used to have a crush on, and find myself finding reasons why it won't work occasionally. Not necessarily for any particular reason, just finding reasons. I don't have time still. I can't make time in the future. She isn't interested, anyway. How would I know if she was. Maybe I don't want it to work, for some reason. I suppose to some extent I feel like I ought not to be in a relationship at the moment. Admittedly, we're just hanging out Tuesday, probably, and there are no obligations past that. Just spending some time together outside of dance. It's just weird. I don't know why I tend to do it, nor why I'm not spouting this out here, nor whether anyone is reading it, nor what they would think if they did. I just know that I'm writing it and I'm doubting myself and I don't really like it, but it won't stop.
1 comment:
Well, it should stop.
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