Thoughts on the Choir Trip

So for those that don't know, I just finished getting back from a choir trip. I was thinking about this some, and realizing that there was a lot of socializing and fun that went on. Now to preface what I'm about to write, don't get me wrong, I did have a lot of fun. However, and that's not a small however, I clearly did not have as much fun as a lot of people on the trip did. Which is unfortunate. For one thing, I did my drinking in moderation, largely because I had to keep an eye on people. Now, I'm certainly not an alcoholic by any means, but I do enjoy being social with people and as uptight as I can tend to be, I don't mind loosening up a little. Probably for the best that I didn't loosen up too much, as there were at least a few women along on the trip that seem to have a vested interest in me. Unfortunately I don't necessarily return said interest. Especially when you add alcohol to the equation do things become more interesting, and I had to definitely do some damage control before things got out of hand. Partially as a result of this and some other things I didn't really get to focus very much on myself. So I spent time taking care of other people, as I always do. Inevitably this seems to be my lot in life. I would say custodian to other people's lives, but that seems to demean those people. I really just want to find someone that will take care of me, and help make sure that I make time for myself. I suppose I just need to find someone as compulsive about taking care of people as I am. That's kind of a problem, though, as inevitably any woman that similar to myself would be full of neuroses. Additionally, I'd need to find someone that would also be a match for some of my admittedly geeky past times. I am a music addict, enjoy playing video games, and follow more sports than I ought to. Until then, I'll just have to hang in there, eh?